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When the darkness seems too deep to swim in, you just have one task: find your way out. You will always find light, even if it’s hidden behind thick clouds. It’s even there in experiences that feel like total defeat.
A positive outlook can help you survive any obstacle thrown your way. When everything feels hopeless — which bipolar will tell you is true, even when it’s not–-I repeat four words, “Focus on the light.” I keep repeating the words until they become engrained in my being.
Depression is a fiendish enemy. It not only steals the light but takes away your desire to look for it. The monster chases away hope while zapping you of all energy. It melts away colors leaving behind only black and varying shades of gray.
The Weight of Bipolar Depression
I have bipolar disorder. For me, I can count on depression showing up at least three times a year, but usually more often. The depressive cycle can hold me hostage for a few days or several months. The weight is crushing, and life passes by in a silent haze.
When your entire sky is gray and full of storms, you need to focus on the light. It’s always there.
During my bipolar depression episodes, my world goes dark. I go dark. The dark-and-twisty Scott comes out, or rather goes in. In the darkness, I tend to lock myself in a room alone or confine myself to bed.
But it doesn’t have to be that way. If I can focus, I can fight it. So can you.
“It is during our darkest moments that we must focus to see the light.” — Aristotle
Search for Past Light
When life seems dark and full of clouds, focus on the light. Let the glimmers of hope hold off your depression. Use light to help you cope.
Focus on your family or friends who love you. Focus on God and his love for you. Remember the happy moments in your life, not the dark ones. Hold on tight to the best of you.
Look back on times when you were happy. Think about why you felt joy, and remember the people who made you feel loved. Relive all the good things from your past.
Look for the light everywhere. Listen to uplifting music, watch happy movies, or search online for positive topics, such as, ‘Amazing Things That Happen Every Day.’ or ‘One Good Thing Every Day.’
By focusing on the light, you can overcome the force that’s trying to hold you down. Turn away from the dark and face the light. As Aristotle said, “It is during our darkest moments that we must focus to see the light.”
You won’t feel like this forever. In time, the joy and color will come back. Your life will be enjoyable, and you’ll feel like living again. Until then, keep fighting, even when you feel like giving up.
Focus on the light and you will see it.
Look for More Light
Search for more light with these prompts.
Journal Prompt: What’s the brightest light you’ve ever seen? Why did it affect you so much? Who is your greatest light bringer? How do they help you?
Creative Writing Prompt: The world goes dark and only your character can bring back the light. Write the story of how they succeed.
Until next time, keep fighting.
Scott Ninneman