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Lying on my back on the brown Berber carpet, I stare at the wall of candles in front of me.
A rounded-top, cast-iron room divider with ivy leaf vines supporting 18 clear-glass votive holders stands over me, just a few inches from my feet. I think about how rarely I light the unscented white tea lights filling each holder and get up and light them all.
My mind marvels at how much light comes from 18 candles, so I turn off the stained-glass floor lamp in the corner.
I’ve been feeling numb.
Days go by, but I feel disconnected from them. I’m in the throes of bipolar blur, and I’m sick of it.
I lie back down on the floor and watch the flames of the candles dance, each one creating shifting shadows around the room.
I need to feel, and I know music is the solution.
“One good thing about music, when it hits you, you feel no pain.”
- Bob Marley
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